Not perfect but always trying to improve...

I have been terrible at keeping up with this since Ava was born so that sucks. I really would like to be better... so I will try. I am definitely not making it a goal or resolution or anything... I generally fail at those about the same time I start them.
I am not going to try and recap the past year either... when people do that I admire them for the effort and then proceed to skip to the next blog because I feel time is limited and spending two hours reading up on someone's life is probably not where I want to allot that time. I'm gonna assume the same for anyone out there reading this and just carry on...

What I would actually like to do is take a moment to say I am truly grateful to be my three girls' mom. I am not the best mom in the world... pretty far from actually... but I sure do feel a huge amount of gratitude that I get to try every day to do right by them. I am not going to lie... I was a waaaay better mom when I just had my older two. I seemed to have more patience and time... and probably sleep... but I sure am glad Ava decided to make her arrival in our lives. I am not going to try and make excuses for my shortcomings, I have them, I need to work on them and there is no good reason to have them. However, I was granted this huge blessing to be their mom and to be this example for them and I felt like I needed to acknowledge that despite the fact I have lots to work on, I go to bed every night fully aware of the awesomeness that is my life as a result of them!

Merry Christmas!!!!!

Kaia Rose is three!

My little girl just had a birthday!

I just love the heck out of her! She seriously makes me laugh every single day and I cannot imagine my life without her! I am so lucky she chose me to be her mommy!

Justice?

So I want to post something that has occupied my mind a lot lately... due to the fact that I was on mat leave and watched every day of it...

Caylee Anthony.

Most everyone knows the situation. Most everyone thinks the same thing.

I am not going to rehash everything, what I want to say is this-

I am so thankful to be a mother. I am so thankful for the children I have been blessed with.

(Yes, ALL 3 of them!)

I am sickened over a mother that can act the way little Caylee's did. I am sickened over the lack of justice this little baby is going to get. I am heartbroken for her grandparents who loved that little girl like their own.

I am grateful however. Grateful for the knowledge and faith that she is in heaven with so many people who will love her and treat her as she deserves. Grateful that life doesn't end here on earth and that it only gets exponentially better on the other side.

I don't know what would possess a mother to act the way hers did. What would make a mother do the things she did. What I do know is even if she is not going to receive any sentence on earth, there is a much greater one waiting for her on the other side.

My heart breaks that there are people- doing everything they can to have children even if it means hurdling a crapload of obstacles...yet people who NEVER in a million years should be allowed near a freakin child, let alone having them- get to birth and neglect them.

All I want to say is I appreciate my children so much. I love and adore them more than anything in the world and I really hope and pray that little Caylee is feeling that someone up there feels the same way about her.

Avaleigh Britany....

Well, she is over a month old and I still have not posted. It has been an absolutely crazy past month... still it's about time I got on this!

Our little girl arrived one hour and twelve minutes before her due date... so all that worrying for nothing! She came fast, thus depriving me from receiving any drugs so that was unfortunate- slash totally sucked, but we got through it like so many other mommies have.

She is such a good baby and we kinda love her a lot! Grace is so pumped and for the first few weeks she wouldn't leave Av's sight. Kai is also loving being a big sister and takes every opportunity to kiss her and tell me she loves her.

The other big thing happening in our lives is Ben moving to Regina for the summer. Spence had a few guys drop out and so they made an exception and had Ben go out to help him. It is going to be a really good thing for us, so we're excited but we definitely miss him. It's been a bit of an adjustment to go from having a husband and two kids to no husband and three but we're making it work. Luckily I have really good kids!

Anyway, because it is so crazy around here this post is gonna be short... here are my faves of the pics Kel did for us...

These ones were right after she was born- Kel didn't take them- my sis did, but i love them too.

This is all Kel's handiwork...

And then six days later...